August 07, 2008

There is more than enough people around me who like me and are nice to me and make me happy, but it takes so little time for me to convince myself that I'm a total loser and everything sucks, once they are gone.

I don't know what I want and I feel constantly overwhelmed and weak. its starting to effect my brain and my body.
this whole week I've had this weird chest pain and when I breathe in too hard my chest goes cold and I have to cough..its worst at night.

I see that others like me.. I don't understand why I cant like me.

i've become so accustomed to this constant state of depression that I cant tell which way is up.

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