birthday was tight! i ate alot.
ashley took some pictures they are in her new flickr

http://www.flickr.com/photos/27225397@N06/



i'm goin' to l.a. to play a fest this weekend. hopefully that will also be tight.

I really like sitting in my room drawing. I'm not being anti social i just like to draw in my room...people can come and draw with me but they get all loud and i just wanna draw tacos surfing french fry waves in a relaxed state. I'm not mad I made a mix the other day and i like it alot, its not for any grill this time just for my bike rides...but you can steal it and give it to a grill if ya want!
***MIXTAPE IZ HERE***

Slingshot Dakota-Dreams of Kick Flips and Pistol Whips
Arrah and the Ferns-Emo Phillips
Arrah and the Ferns-Apple for Evan
The Besties-Space song
The Besties-Siren song
The Softies-Alaska
The Softies-C.K.M.
BunnyGrunt-We suspect he was trying to spell
BunnyGrunt-Me & My Vampire Friends
BunnyGrunt-Where Eagles Dare, pt.2
Goodluck-Pajammin
Madeline-A Different Place
Nico-Somewhere theres a feather
Little Wings-Look at what the light did now
Sissy Bar-Sour
Sissy Bar-Daisy Putter
Vancougar-Repitition
Strawberry Fair-I cant do anything
Polaris-She is staggering
Polaris-Waiting for october
Vivian Girls-Never see me again
Tin Armor-The state of things
Marine Research-y.y.u.b.

i usually listen to my mixes on shuffle.....you should do the same!also let me know if any of the old mixed tapes' links have gone bad. I'll sendzz you the mix myself.

bring me food for my birthday!

Jane and ciara came and hung out for a little!

i lost my mind a little.

i been drawing a little more.

there is little to be hopeful for.

heres som cell photozzzz

bizee

this weekend i've tried to stay as busy as possible to keep my mind from wandering. its doing ok...


here are some recent cell phone piczz.

vidz

me and phil spent 2 hourz on youtube..here are our findingz.

im at work, not working.

in time I'd surely grow lonesome.
you would no doubt become bored, desperate for company other than mine and luxuries I cant afford.



i wish i coulda gone to portland this weekend.

There is more than enough people around me who like me and are nice to me and make me happy, but it takes so little time for me to convince myself that I'm a total loser and everything sucks, once they are gone.

I don't know what I want and I feel constantly overwhelmed and weak. its starting to effect my brain and my body.
this whole week I've had this weird chest pain and when I breathe in too hard my chest goes cold and I have to cough..its worst at night.

I see that others like me.. I don't understand why I cant like me.

i've become so accustomed to this constant state of depression that I cant tell which way is up.